Aegidrom

First, an announcement: I will, in the future change the content of this site and probably make a new site, changing this site to "Aegidrom" and another, "Aetheray", at aetheray.webs.com (URL not functional yet). This way I can share my more personal secrets with a fewer number of people on this site, making it more private; and then perhaps make a community on the other site, a more "stranger-friendly" site.

Before this, however, I'm prepared to let you in on a personal secret, even if it's private. So here it is, open to the world, although in Swedish, because that way I can express my feelings more easily.

Jag känner en person, tro det eller ej, som jag älskar på vissa plan, men som har vissa sidor jag hatar. När jag senast mötte denna person frågade den mig om jag hade gjort det jag skulle, varpå jag svarade att jag hade gjort lite. Jag fick då genast kritik och order, inget uppmuntrande. Detta scenario är väldigt frekvent.

Den är den största hycklaren jag mött, och även homofob (allmänt ganska fördomsfull, faktiskt), den är extremt barnslig, och väldigt trångsynt. Det värsta brott jag har kunskap om att denne person har begått är barnmisshandel, vilket är den största orsaken till mitt hat.

Jag har en stor fruktan att jag kan bli som denne person. Personen har få goda egenskaper, on top of that så tror den att fallet är tvärtom. Detta är lite av allt det ni kommer att få höra senare, förhoppningsvis.

Moving on, I have had so many things to write about, and I just want to express a couple of my feelings to you, so they do not fade.

First of all, I'm deeply depressed about the death of the worlds greatest musician - Michael Jackson. In case you didn't know, he is my favorite artist/performer, and I have always loved his music. I think it's sad that such a great hero was given so much hate. On the other hand, he and I are very thankful for all the love he got. Thank you.

Secondly, this summer I was going to talk with my great past love, and to my regret this conversation never took place. I fear know that I have lost a friend, not just a girlfriend; this means that I have lost a person in my life - now I only have the memories. If she would only care, even just a bit, maybe I would be satisfied, and move on. But, she hasn't spoke, she hasn't got her stuff, she has done little or nothing to help our post-end relationship. I give my tears to this star.

And some other third thing.

Now I must go do things! To enrich my life! Not just sit here and move my fingers and pupils. 

Goodbye!